June......

Firstly, I don't care about my grammar, or something about structure on sentences. You have to choose, read it or leave it.
I feel so sad, I don't know why, I thought times goes by so fastly like lightning. Like a jet. like something small that flown away so far.
Let's rewind about a few months ago.
At first, I didn't like my new class. That's really annoying, the pupils are always talk out loud. I even couldn't study or be serious when teacher gave me a materials. As time goes by, I try to enjoy and blend with them (It ain't easy as I thought before) and thanks god, I can blend with them. Although I hate someone on my class, I always Ignore them.
Today is June, and eleventh grade will be end on a few days later. I try to hold my eyes for not crying. I know, I hate being sad. Moreover If I have to clean my face from my tears.
In other side, every people has right to feel sad, when they couldn't handle their problem, they'll crying. Like what I want to do now.
I just remember what people said, We will realize that something is so precious when we lost it. I haven't already lost that, but I feel that I've already lost it.
I need space of time, I need to rest, I want back to my old life like used to be. I haven't ready to face the new part of my life. I'm teenager and I want my teen's life like on drama that always laughing, cheering, and happiness around me. I try to figure out what I supposed to do. But until now. I haven't got it because everything seems to absurd.
I can't continue my words, my fingers want to stop it. thanks for reading. Much obliged.